Candice

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 05:37:25 GMT

I'm going up to North Bay for until Tuesday, to visit Josh's grandparents. I don't know why but I'm really scared. :(

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 04:57:51 GMT

So much for trying to post every day. A week ago I went to a party with a bunch of people I work with. It was a pretty interesting night for sure. I slept over at Heather's and I had to work at noon. Worst. Shift. Ever. I was so hungover and I thought for sure I was going to puke 7874893435 times. It was only 3 hours but it was the longest 3 hours of my life. Before work that day I went to McDonald's with Josh on his lunch break and I was still kind of drunk and I was trying to order but I didn't do so good. I felt like the biggest idiot. That reminds me of a kid that I was taking an order from the other day, he was like "guess what I'm wasted", I was like good for you buddy.

I called this place regarding a job ad in the paper and I set up an interview, which was Monday. I thought I did terrible in the interview, but I got the job. I start training next Wednesday. It's a water treatment place, and I will have to be going to people's houses and testing their water. It sounds sooo crappy but it's $2500 a month minimum. Josh's brother also got this job and starts training tomorrow I think. I have another interview for a accounting assistant position on Thursday. I will probably like this job better, so I'm hoping I get this one. If I get this job I probably wont take the other one. I may stay at Taco Bell, depending on the hours with the new job.

We made the first payment on the Ford Taurus a couple weeks ago. We will be making the second payment on Thursday, and then the final one on September 11th. That's the day we get to take it home. I'm really excited to finally have a car.

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 07:04:31 GMT

There hasn't been anything going on really. I found out last night that Bobby was going to be helping build a playground in Michigan 3 hours away today, and I was going to go. But the van is in bad shape and it wouldn't have made it there, and I would have had to go alone because Josh was working. I'm kind of sad that I didn't go. We got the van checked out today and the the problem is the wheel barrings. It's about $350 to get fixed. We may be able to get someone who will do it cheaper though. I don't know if we are still going to get the Ford Taurus or not. Were kind of looking for something else. I may just get the van fixed and not buy another vehicle at all. I'm pretty attached to the van now.

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 04:35:32 GMT

When I was at work I got a text from the mobile thing on Labontes Law. It said that Bobby finished 42nd from an accident. I wondered if he was hurt, I just had a feeling that he was. I went online on my phone to check if he was ok but I didn't find anything. When I got home Josh was like "did you hear about Bobby?" I'm like yeah he crashed right? He told me that he got hurt but I came online to see for myself and I got soo upset. Josh was like 'hes ok, he walked away' (he saw a video of it on nascar.com, we didn't get it live), but I was still a wreck. Not long after that Josh had two seizures. When he woke up this morning he had another one. I didn't sleep much last night because I was really upset.

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 19:00:59 GMT

Work wasn't that bad last night. They had me on cash so it was pretty good. I got called in to work again today 4-9, which I can do because the race is tape delayed on TSN until 11pm! It really sucks. I going to put the pics up from the BSB concert whenever I can find the cord for the camera.

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 19:51:15 GMT

I'm terrified to go to work. I work 5-11. If they make me do drive thru I think I'm just going to shoot myself in the face right then and there. Seriously though, I may just say I quit and leave.

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 07:12:54 GMT

I just got home from the Backstreet Boys concert. It was pretty amazing. It was a crazy amount of nuts though. I'll write more details later, I'm too tired to think right now

Thu, 07 Aug 2008 06:39:42 GMT

I got Wondergrass in the mail today, I love it. Thats about it.

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 06:10:04 GMT

I got the canary I wanted today :) I named it Star. I like it a lot. I'm concerned that the cats will try to make it dinner though. When I was gone to the pet store, one of the dogs came in and took everything out of the garbage can and dumped it on the floor, and ate the rest of my birthday cake. I can't say I'm a dog lover.

I had the worst time at work tonight. I don't really want to get into the details but everyone including customers were being really rude to me and it really sucked.

That scam loan company from Nigeria keeps calling here and I can't understand a word they say, and I hang up on them and they keep calling back. And emailing me. After I told them we aren't taking the loan anymore.

I think I might be going to the beach with Josh's sisters and mom tomorrow. I hate being in a bathing suit, so much. I like the beach though, but I always feel awful.

Two days until the Backstreet Boys concert :)

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 06:53:28 GMT

I had a great birthday today :D. I was woken up around 8:30 by the phone. I answered it and they said hello? like they didn't hear me. I said hello a couple more times and they were like hello, and then they said something in a foreign language. I didn't think much of it at the time, but it turned out to be related to a scam that took our money. I posted about it here http://forum.kijiji.ca/viewtopic.php?t=6770793.

But anyway, I visited my sister today which was cool. I don't get to see her too often because she lives about 45 minutes away. My sister and her boyfriend made burgers and potatoes. They made sausage too but I opted for a burger. It was great :D. I wasn't expecting them to get me a cake, but they did. It was really good too. We played a game like ring toss in the backyard which was pretty fun, even though me and Josh lost, lol. For my birthday they gave me $50, she usually gets me gifts instead of cash, but I asked for moola this year so I could save up for a good GPS. Although now, it looks like that money may be going towards the car, because the loan we were going to get turned out to be a scam.

While I was at my sisters, I talked to my parents on the phone. I hadn't talked to them for a couple weeks :(. My cell has been really crappy lately, I really need to look into getting it fixed.

For supper at home, Josh's mom made me nachos! Nachos and burgers on the same day, can life get any better? I got a second cake that she made as well. I broke the cake though when I tried to cut it, lol, it kinda fell apart. I could have eaten the whole thing of nachos if I wanted to, they were the best. I was very curious to see what I got from Josh's family, because Josh said that I will love it and it's something that he didn't think of. So, I got a note with a picture of a bird on it that said "happy birthday, I'll pick it up Tuesday". I was pretty confused, but intrigued. I didn't get it, until Josh's mom said "what kind of bird is that?" and then I realized that it was a picture of a canary, and I was really wanting one that I keep seeing at the pet store I go to all the time. I'm going with her get it tomorrow! I'm so excited for it. I cleaned out a bird cage that they said I can use for it, and I have everything set up already in the bedroom. I've had a lot of animals in the past, but never a bird. I know I'm going to love it.

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 05:33:00 GMT

Today sucked. I woke up with a huge hangover and I spent most of the day trying to sleep it off. Bobby finished 33rd :(. I had high hopes that he would do well. Josh went to the concert with Jason. They left around 5. He's not home yet. I'm crazy bored. But on the upside I learned that I have Guitar Hero on my cell. I don't know how it got on there lol. Oh, and I guess technically it is my birthday :)

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 06:15:39 GMT

Today was great. Ashley, Jason and Sean came over and we played Rock Band and hung out. Josh and Sean decided that it was a good idea to go swimming when they were drunk, which it wasn't, lol. Josh drank too much and puked a lot :/. We went garage sale-ing, and I saw a lot of cute puppies. We got a flat tire and juuust made it to Canadian Tire. We were waiting there for about an hour for them to fix it. I couldn't even drive it into the parking lot because the tire was so flat. It sucked, but tonight made up for it.

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 06:41:08 GMT

I finally got the Bobby Labonte 2008 Press Kit in the mail today. I won it on eBay in March. They also sent 2 8x10s of Bobby's cars, and the Kyle Petty Press Kit as consolation for the wait. I got a birthday card in the mail from my parents <3, it had a cheque in it for $150. I'm going to use the money to put towards a GPS.

After I picked up Josh, we went to Tillsonburg to get concert tickets. We had to meet a girl in the McDonalds parking lot. Then Josh and I ate at McDonalds, lol. The concert is Rancid on the 3rd in Toronto, if you're wondering. Josh is going with Jason. We went to the mall in Tillsonburg for like 15 minutes. We didn't buy anything, I was impressed. We went back into Woodstock and bought a lot of beer. They didn't have any cold shots though :(.

We cleaned the basement, it was awful! We had to take apart a computer desk that was falling apart, and replace it with a non falling apart-y one. We cleaned out a toychest full of legos. It took forever to clean it, but it looks pretty good now.

Bobby qualified 11th :D. I couldn't watch it, again! I hate being Canadian sometimes.

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 06:50:19 GMT

Another boring day. I did the laundry and vacuumed. We went to Crabby Joes at 9, and I got nachos like usual, because they are half price after 9. Josh got cheese fries, also half price. He also got a pitcher of beer all for himself. I didn't eat much today so I wouldn't feel bad about the nachos ;). I got Electra eyeshadow in the mail, but it was broken, kinda sucks :(. Still waiting for Wondergrass <3. The Starflash collection came out today. I'm going to the Mac Pro store in Toronto on the 7th, so hopefully I can get a couple things from the collection then. I'm excited for Smoke & Diamonds. I realize I'm weird for getting excited about eyeshadows.

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 07:22:50 GMT

So were buying the 1996 Ford Taurus. For $500. The outside is in good shape. The interior is too, but it's really ugly, why does it have to be brown? It doesn't run right now though, but they say it wont take much to fix it.

I didn't do anything today again. I'm looking for a second job tomorrow.

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 07:09:26 GMT

I drove Josh to work at 6, and went back to sleep. I dragged myself out of bed at 1. Did nothing. Didn't even do my makeup all day, can you believe that? When I picked up Josh we went to Home Depot then McDonalds. Not long after we got home Josh's dad made pizza. Not a great day for my diet. I just made it sound like I ate something bad at Home Depot. I sent out the real Buoy o Bouy, still feel stupid. Boring day.

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 06:30:32 GMT

I had to work today from 5-8. Pointless shift, I know. But, that's the hours they give me :(. I thought I was supposed to work till 9, so I was surprised when they told me I could go at 8, I was like WHHHHHHHAAAAAA? Well, no... not really, but that's what I was thinking. I got a Mexican Pizza for Josh and a couple tacos with sour cream for me to take home. Yah, I know I'm on a diet, but I love those *tear*.

I want to make a new gmail account, because montecarlojgr is just a little outdated now. I made it when my favorite guys, Bobby and Tony Stewart, both drove for Joe Gibbs Racing (jgr) and the make they drove were chevy monte carlos. Now, Bobby drives for Richard Petty in a Dodge, and Tony drives a Toyota, and next year he will be driving for Stewart Haas Racing. So yah, I need a new one, but all the things I come up with are taken. I don't want one with my last name in it because I hate it, but its the only thing that isn't taken already that I can come up with.

Nothing came in the mail today :( well, nothing good anyway. At work today I got a tingling on the right side of my head. I used to get that all the time back months ago when I was on Paxil and having panic attacks all the time. I'm not too sure why it's starting again, but it makes me nervous. Another thing that makes me nervous is the chest pains I've been having off an on for a while now. I've gotten it checked out so many times and they keep saying it's nothing. What I don't understand is why it hurts. There must be a reason for it, right? Pain just doesn't happen without something being wrong.

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 06:36:11 GMT

Josh and I went to McDonalds for breakfast on his way to work, which we don't do very often. We go to McDonalds almost every day, but not for breakfast lol. The Brickyard 400 was today, it wasn't good at all. They had to change tires every 10-15 laps because they were wearing down too quickly. Bobby finished 16th, which isn't too bad considering the car was a piece of crap, and so is the entire crew. But, I'll leave that rant for another time.

Josh threw a piece of banana at me and it hit me in the forehead. It was probably the funniest thing that happened ever. He also put hand lotion and pepper in my sock. The other day he squeezed suntan lotion in my butt crack. It was possibly the worst feeling in the world.

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 04:53:08 GMT

I worked today from 5-9. It was pretty crappy but I like the people I work with a lot. I might be little bit drunk right now. I love that I can drink 2 beers and be drunk. I feel guilty for cheating on my diet last night, a had a lot of candy at the drive in, and tonight I had a caesar salad and beer. I'm convinced that Jimmy Buffett writes all his songs when he's drunk/high. Bobby qualified like, 27th, I think. I missed it because it was on ESPN 2, and I don't get that channel, oh well. Josh wants me to buy a 1998 Pontiac Bonneville, for $2400. It's an ugly car and I really don't want it, especially for that price. I have my heart set on a Chevy Malibu, but, I guess it's not my decision. He says I can race it when we get something better, but it's too ugly even for a beat up race car.

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 06:42:39 GMT

Last week was an off week for Nascar, so I was really excited to watch practice today. Bobby didn't do very well in the practices, again.

I went to the drive in with Josh and Sarah. We saw Get Smart and The Dark Knight. Both were great movies, the Dark Knight was sooooo long though. We bought a bunch of candy and a cake lol.

I realized when I rummaged through my purse to find my favorite lipstick, that I accidentally sent my favorite lipstick instead of Buoy-o-Bouy. Both were in my purse when I went to the post office yesterday. Ugh I feel stupid. :(

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 06:32:52 GMT

I learned how to do this

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 05:28:43 GMT

I didn't do like, anything today. I'm such a bum. I got a Bobby decal in the mail today, and it came with a full page of instructions, I didn't know it could be so complicated. I'm going to wait until we buy a car and put it on that. Which should be a week or two hopefully! I hope that I will be able to buy the Malibu, I love it.

I sent out Buoy o Buoy lipstick (from MAC, of course) to a girl who bought it from me in a sale. I spent a good part of my day playing Rock Band. Josh got mad at me because I said I was ugly, I don't know why that makes him so mad. I went for a bike ride to make me feel better, but I ended up sweaty and gross. Josh drew candy all over my arm and he colored it with markers. It looks kinda neat.

I have two eyeshadows coming in the mail from sales on here. Electra and Wondergrass(!!). I hope they come tomorrow, or at least Wondergrass. Electra is depotted already because it's used, and my palette is full, so I don't know what I'm going to do with it. I guess I need a need a new palette! I'm going to be buying one when I go to the Toronto MAC Pro store when we go to see the Backstreet Boys on August 7th. I can't believe I'm going to see BSB! I've love them since I was like 7 lol.

Backstreet Boys, MAC Pro store, and a car for my birthday? Sounds awesome to me!

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 06:08:45 GMT

I am going to try to make my best effort to update this everyday. If anyone actually reads this and cares, I got my driver's license about three or four months ago.

Today I got MAC Mineralized Skin Finish in New Vegas in the mail, from a swap (finally!) I was so excited, I love it. It's from the Alexander McQueen collection in 2007, before I was interested in MAC. I don't know how often I will wear it because I don't really like sparkles on my cheeks, but I love just looking at it and to say that I have it. As an extra, she sent me an eyeshadow from a random company, that's packaged in something like a pigment jar. I love the color of it so much, she must have tapped into my brain. I also got Lust lipglass from MAC in the mail, from a sale on mac_cosmetics. It was darker than I thought it would be, but I still like it over Myth lipstick. I don't know where to give her feedback though :/.

Around 9 pm, Josh and I decided to do some grocery shopping, lol. I was hard to resist buying junk, but I did. I really need to find somewhere that sells Propel in bulk. Paying $2 for a bottle is too much. We ran into Josh's mom, and we checked out behind her lol. When we were grocery shopping we found an empty box of granola bars, I think it was, and we were carrying it around for some reason, and almost checked out with it :P. On the way out of the store, Josh crashed the buggy into the sliding door and broke it so that it didn't slide anymore lol. A guy that worked there fixed it though, so that was good. We had to drive Megan home, and we tried to convince her that we couldn't drive her home because we were going to the strip bar.

We are working on getting a loan so will will be able to afford a car so we will be able to save on gas. There is a noise in the van that we can't afford to get checked out, and it makes me nervous :(. I can't wait to get that fixed. I also can't wait for a vehicle with air conditioning...

First Entry

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 08:20:58 GMT

I made a new username on here. I'm trying to erase the me that was in the past. I'm hoping to start a new me. A me that I will actually like. I know it will be hard, but I'm sick of hating myself. I wish I knew how to get started on fixing myself. I'm starting to go to the gym, and eat healthier. I guess that's a good start, looks-wise. but I think that my personality is awful too, and that's where I'm stuck. How do I fix my personality? I have avoidant personality disorder, which basically means I'm really shy, and any little criticism makes me more upset than it should. I know I need self confidence but thats so hard for me. My lack of self confidence has made a lot of little things in my life so difficult, things that normal people would have no trouble with. Things like sports, work, and basically anything that involves interaction with other people. I also have trouble speaking, I can never find the right words to say. So basically, I rarely say anything, and when I do, it's crap that usually doesn't make much sense. How do I fix that? I wish I knew. A couple weeks ago I got fired from a housekeeping job because I was cleaning the rooms too slow. I also failed my G2 test a couple days back because, you guessed it, I drove too slow. I take the test again on March 7th, and if I don't get it, my boyfriend wont be able to get to work that week, because his parents are going to Florida. I don't know what I'm going to do if I fail again, I'm going to feel like such crap. I had a job interview today ay Super 8 for front desk. I hope I get that job, but in a sense, I'm scared if I get the job, I wont be good enough and get fired, again. I might as well give it a shot because sitting here isn't going to get me where I need to be.